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The Cure


I’m not the touchy-feely type. I generally believe in very little and like things done in a rational, logical way. I’ve been prowling a lot, lately, in a blind dash for ideas on what to do with this place that cost me so much peace of mind and a sizable chunk of my take-home pay every month. I’ve been wanting some great transformation to happen all at once, a transformation that will make me love this place that right now I barely like. The brutal cold of winter hasn’t helped. (I don’t recognize the scrawl on the Post-It notes on my monitor. The cold has made it difficult to type and impossible to write.)

I was in the library last week returning a book on Condo Ownership, of which I didn’t read a word. I’m not in the frame of mind to read anything with an patina of importance or I may kill someone or implode or jump out my windows. I, the slave of books that I’ve always been, dawdled around and found myself in the home decorating section. Amidst books with titles like “Loft Living” that make me so anxious because my place is such a hovel compared to those places, I saw a little book entitled Apartment Therapy: The Eight Week Cure. There were so splashy pictures of designer lofts overlooking Central Park people by fashionistas in Manolo Blahniks. I read a little bit of it and it said something about an eight week plan to make your home feel better. Since I’m so overwhelmed with this place that I don’t know where to start, I took it and checked out.

I read it in 2 days. Cover to cover. Though sometimes the author goes a bit too much into psycho-babble, what he says is true. Maybe the psycho-babble part of it is true and maybe that’s part of why I’ve been so anxious and overwhelmed and exhausted lately, My home isn’t working for me and I have to force it to become mine and a place for me. The pacing of the book is reassuring and helpful with just enough concrete information to qualify as a how-to that it’s nearly saved my life. I’m going to follow the so-called cure and get this place together and make it work. The incredibly cold and depressing winter is beginning to lift and this will be a great time to do it. Hopefully by the snowfalls of next December, I’ll be so firmly ensconced that the cold won’t matter.

Today I went out and got some orange tulips as the author says. Buying flowers every week is expensive and I doubt I’ll keep it up religiously but it’s a start. I’ve already started the Outbox (though technically that doesn’t happen until the next week on the cure but I’m comfortable with jumping ahead a bit). I’m ahead in that I already cook at home nearly every night. I’m ahead in that I recently moved and so have already purged quite a bit and so I can work in some of the other things like painting. I may start with the bathroom. I will tape paint chips on the walls after I’m done with this.

Little by little, this will get done.

Painting the entire place may have to wait, though. I’ve made a list of the repairs that need to be done and fixing the windows is at the top of the list.

Weekend Cooking:

  • Torta di mandorla
  • Warm Tuna and Potato Salad

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