Reactionary

I know I’ve been absent and there’s been a lot to write about, though very little can be posted for the world to see. I’m busy. I’m busy in a chase that’s the hardest I’ve ever run and I’m not sure what’s at the end. The rational realist in me says to give it up, even though it knows there have been signs favorable to continuing. In the last month, I think I’ve spent more time on the phone than I have in the past year before it. Every detail has been discussed. Every spoken line examined. Every action dissected. Every possible meaning wrung out of every bit of communication that’s passed. And it’s still an enigma. Sometimes I wonder if I should bother at all, but just when I start thinking that, something happens to keep me in it. I’ve never wanted to read minds more in my life.

The weather’s broken and it’s my favorite season, fall. I may also be moving house for the first time in 4 years and I’m anxious about that. I hate moving, but they can’t keep driving rent up and not giving me anything in return. But I don’t have time to look for a new place in a month. I hate how the new lease term always catches me by surprise.

September 23rd, 2007 | Category: Life |  Print |  Send it | Subscribe to comments | Leave a comment | Trackback URL