Solstice
I’m supposed to get on a plane tomorrow and now I’m all panicky. No, I’m not afraid of flying or anything like that. I just get really anxious that I’ll forget everything, that the luggage will be too heavy, that I won’t take something I’ll need, that I’ll take too much. I’ve done a dry run of everything I’m supposed to do when I get there. Packing is always so stressful for me. I live in fear of forgetting something. Maybe because I’mlike this it’s that I’ve never forgotten something over there or ran into trouble I couldn’t resolve. Armed now with phone numbers, e-mail addresses, paperwork, and PINs and money, I should be fine. I mean, I know I’ll be fine. It’ll be awesome and I’ll have a great time. But I always feel uprooted the night before a flight. I guess I both love and hate being home. I’m packing both cameras if I can swing it. Geez, why am I so obnoxious?!
P.S. Story in the paper today about increasing sitings of black bears in New Jersey and the paper said it was because of the human overcrowding and infringing on the bears’ habitat. And then without skipping a beat, the paper says New Jersey is considering a bear hunt to squelch fears of public safety. WHAT? Oh, people are taking their homes, bears are being seen, so let’s just shoot them so they won’t bother us anymore. I hate humanity sometimes. Stories like this is what makes me not believe in medical advances or cries to help humanity. Overcrowding. #1 evidence of humanity doing just fine at the expense of every other living thing on the planet. #1 reason humanitarians make me ill. Yes, dear Bono, this means you, but I still love you. Does that make me a terrible person? I don’t care if it does, because nothing anyone says or does will change that reflex thought in me. The world is overpopulated! Vastly. And yet they’re still crying about this and that so people stop dying. Question marks are popping out of my head. Newsflash: Everyone dies.
Posted on June 20th, 2005 under Life • 
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